removing the dust...

So, after a while, I come back here. I think, this is because the movies "L'Auberge Espagnole" and "Les Poupées Russes". Some friends told me to watch this two movies about a year, and today I have the opportunity. I just turn on the television and was in the beginning of L'Auberge Espagnole. I confess, I just start to watch, 'cause I want to learn french and like an good movie. When the first finish, the other start 15 minutes later. This I call Opportunity!

Well, if you read this blog, or already had read it and haven't meet me in person, you must think: "Why he don't write here in 6 months?" or just don't want to know. Well, this is my blog, personal and professional(the idea of this blog is, this is my professional blog), so I must write anything.

When I write my lasts entries, I was working in a free software company. So, I think, everything I work there is free and open to everyone. That's the goal, I guess, but the thinks looks like I'm totally wrong. When I work there I was forbidden to write about it, and I think: "Hey, what's going on?" Well others things happens and I quit the job, but Hey! this happens in July, this is not a excuse to not write since June until January. Well, in July I must meet my "Bolivian's girlfriend". She didn't come and I haven't an news until December, when finally she comes online in MSN messenger. This thing changes me. I quit my job a week before the day she didn't come, I didn't come back to my university after the winter's vacations. I, in some words, suspend my life. I don't think today, all this was about she, but all this was about me. I wasn't happy in my job, I wasn't happy in my personal life. I spend many nights drinking and smoking in some pub. I don't know... today I see and think, that nights was awesome, but reminding this moments I wasn't really happy. Despite be with my best friends and some others friends, I was alone, feeling alone, empty. I spend six entire months thinking about it, and I can't realize what is wrong, until now. I like my work, I choose to program 'cause I like this kind of thing, but I can't finish my personal's projects I start.

I just play games, I guess to be in other places, put my mind in other places. I start working on an Git Managed Library in C# to integrate with MonoDevelop, and I suspend the project. I must remove the dust from my brain, from my eyes, and start to getting better, personal and professionally.

Well, this is the why, the meaning.

Looking an few to my future, I must get back to my study, get some work(here or in any place) and have an life, my life. I think start to write more times here, and start to write an Novell( if I complete that too ).

This is all planning and only I can change that's things planned to concrete things. Just me, just it.